Many years ago our family had it's trail of transferring from one place to another. Yes, we have to transfer because we don't own the lot were we live. I witnessed at my young age the painful experienced that my family had faced and endured. As cast outs in the land which we don't own. Squatters in the eyes of the owner, we were forced to vacate and tear down our house and transferred somewhere else. I can still remember when we were told to leave, they were shouting to us... that was in the year 1960's. I'm still 3 or 4 years old. The last and the longest place were our family stayed and live is at SPPVS in sorsogon city. We transferred to that place in the year 1970's. I am already in high school that time. In this place many stories happened. This is the place were our eldest brother, my father and my mother died. The picture you see in this blog (the old and small house) Is the house built by my father after the typhoon that hits our place. The materials that my father used are the only few left from the former house that was destroyed by the typhoon. I left my family in 1981 after my two years in college. I look for a job in Manila in order to support our family. In the year 1984, our family faced it's painful experienced again when my eldest brother died. He was killed by an unknown killer,until now nothing happened to his case. We just leave it to God. My eldest brother was brutally killed , his head was cut off and the body was thrown in to the rice field 300 meters away from our house. I can't forget the scene and the picture of my father and mother crying while sitting near the window of our old small house.. I saw them.. when I arrived at home from manila. I felt the pain that my parents experienced on that time. I saw how my parents loved our eldest brother. In 1989..another challenge came to our family.... the death of our father. He suffered from stroke that caused to the deterioration of his body and health. He died a few days after our newly constructed and a little bit bigger house was done. He just wanted to stay in our house rather to be brought to the hospital,, because we don't have any resources. Before he died he look at us all...and we promised to him that we will take care of our mother. Just a few minutes ...he closed his eyes and died as if he is just sleeping...... In the year 1994, our eldest sister died of cancer... on that time we were silenced. We kept it secret to our mother so to avoid.. heart attack. On that time then, it seems that our mother could not recognised us at all anymore. Years after.... my brother who is older than me, died because of his kidney and eumonia. He died a few months after he visited us and our mother. After all...last 1996, our mother give way at her old age, she was 89 years old... she died after the the typhoon "Ruping" slashed and flattened our house. (the picture that you see on my blog). The death of my mother was a very painful experienced for me..... as the youngest son. and the so called "mamas boy".. I lost my mother!!!, it's painful you know. I don't have anymore mother to care , to love , to kiss and to hug. Now, at present , out of the six children in the family (3 brothers and 3 sisters) only three left, I myself and my two sisters; Manay Precy now a widow who is manila with her 2 children, and Manay Imelda , I call he "Nene" who still live in the place where i am telling you the story. Thank God! we were not yet told to vacate the place. Thus far, at this point is the story that I won't forget... that started from the "House".
"nono" is the name i won't forget . This the name that my mother used to call me. The name usually used in Bicol -(younger or youngest son). This name, always reminds me of my Mother whom i loved so much.
mabuhay
Friday, February 26, 2010
Monday, February 22, 2010
Acts of Worship
Lent is Pilipino faith recounted in seven days. From the lusty welcome of the palms on a Sunday, to the sonorous reading of the Passion of Christ midweek, our faith undergoes a gradual renewal that explodes in cathartic grief on Good Friday's crucifixion.
Saturday brings closure , while Easter Sunday gives back a purified vision of ourselves reborn.
The scenes are replayed year after year, in big cities and small towns, a testament to how acts of worship are treasured encounters with both the dinine and the mortal in all of us. (excerpts from - sunday Inquirer magazine - March 10,2008)
Saturday brings closure , while Easter Sunday gives back a purified vision of ourselves reborn.
The scenes are replayed year after year, in big cities and small towns, a testament to how acts of worship are treasured encounters with both the dinine and the mortal in all of us. (excerpts from - sunday Inquirer magazine - March 10,2008)
A Journey of Faith
Ash Wednesday marks the start of a 40 days journey with Jesus. In the Church this is what we call the "Lenten Season". Following the 40 days of Jesus experienced in the desert after he was baptized by John the Baptist. There after, the start of Jesus public life. In 40 days Jesus did fast and pray, he was also tempted by the devil...and test his being " a man yet the Son of God". In an ordinary layman's understanding... this is the time that we can noticed in every Catholic churches... the colored Purple or Violet linen clothe of the altar table and the tabernacle, a very simple style in preparing for the Holy Mass.. no flowers.. and omitting the singing of the Alleluia before the Gospel reading. I remember the colored purple or violet that we used during the advent season -- the 3 candles of the Advent wreath. The purple or violet colored symbolizes Repentance. According to what I read it is also a Royal Color for a King. Yes indeed, the center of this occasion and celebration is -- Jesus Christ - the King of Kings !. so this is the time for us to recollect , reflect and do some acts of good service to the church and to others... Pray, Fast and Alms giving. A detour from our usual way of life...Here the focus is ourselves... our spiritual life.. A Journey of our Faith to God. Within forty (40) days we will walk hand and hand with our church through the different activities leading towards the roots of Faith Experience with God. from Ash Wednesday,...Palm Sunday.. to the Holy week celebration ... and to the ultimate peak of the 40 days journey the "Death of Jesus on Good Friday and the Resurrection on Easter Sunday.
Wednesday, February 17, 2010
Ash Wednesday
Today (February 17,2010)marks the beginning of the Lenten season. The latest topic to talk about of all Catholics throughout the world. The "Ash" from the palms used last year's Palm Sunday, added with Holy water is the one used in marking a sign of a cross on the forehead. "Repent and Believe in the Gospel" this the religious word used during the liturgy. Ash Wednesday focuses to oneself''s redirection for the renewal of vows to God; turning away from sin and believe in the Gospel..going back to the care of the true "Shepherd" of our soul and spirit, "God". I myself , was also trapped into the cycle of life, ...to remember ...how many times that I have sinned against my God . I promised to changed; to repent,to confess but after all..I sometimes fall again into temptations to commit a sin, in my thoughts words and in actions ..When will anyone learned? When will I learned too? I am still struggling, trying my best to avoid committing sins, I know i have to reactivate my awareness and guilt conscience to avoid sin.Everyday there is always temptations that lured one's mind. Yet in the end it sparks with a guilty conscience to give way to renew our personal commitment, to change and go back to God's fold.
Saturday, February 13, 2010
The Ladder
There are stages in Life..from infancy to present whether you are still a kid, a pupil or a student, an adult , a young professional, working.... , a mom or dad... name it where you belong. Every stage has it's own stories to tell; happy, sad..frustrations...accomplisments...anything... that happened into our lives. Everyday is a one step forward..to our own destiny. When the time comes ... to reach a stage of folding up the life's expectancy..our capacity to live in this world..the body shows a different remarkable signs. Obviously HEALTH plays an important role. I have seen a lot of such indicators..and I've encountered and kept a lot of stories to tell from my family experienced' itself. Since i lost my father, our eldest brother next is our second to the eldest..my sister..followed by my mother... and the latest is my brother older than me, who died at the age of 45. Now my time has come. I am already experiencing such effects or signs of what they say...growing older. It is complicated...a sudden change in my body...my health..so to say..no more sky is the limit...because i have to limit already some of my activities which I can't perfectly function anymore..Yes the spirit is willing but the body is weak. Although I've gone through bargaining and denials...but I have to accept the reality in life..my "Ladder in Life." Time will come that I too, will also pass on the stage where my love one's have gone through the Ladder.
Thursday, February 11, 2010
Circus Again ?
On Politics: The opening salvo starts....whew! here they are again. Every time our country (Philippines) kicks off for the new election campaign, our politicians are doing their best to try anything, everything.. in order to gain popularity and public confirmation that they are the best candidates. Campaign materials can be seen anywhere .... they infiltrated anywhere ... on radio, TV , Print, and Internet...later you will see them singing, dancing...handshaking to the people whom they don't even know...roaming around the place ..even on public market...school hopping...and a nationwide tour. Look at their faces.. they all trying to maintain..a cute and friendly smile..? Some used so many millions of money .already before the campaign...where did they get that big amount of money?... are you sure that they used it for the sake of their bid to win ?..After the elections... how can they manage to gain back their expenses..? This is the big question ? from the past until now.. the stories remains the same.... corruption... payola...under the table... bribery...kickbaks..immorality..politial dynasty..whom you know policy..laws created for the sake of the the lawmakers' benefits and not for the people..? where will our country....is heading.for.? what is our future.?..I believe that one of the reason why we never succeeded, prosper as a country .it is because of Politics. After the elections...time will come that the people will start complaining again.... remember ? ... we voted for them.?
Wednesday, February 10, 2010
My first Time
This is the first time I've encountered such a high tech communications in my life...I've decided to be involved and grab the opportunity while I'm still alive... I know that this will help me in composing my self mentally and spiritually. Thanks to the people who invented this such a creative venue . This will now my time and era to unfold my sentiments..., to tell my stories in life , everything that i want to express in life...I don't mind whether it is grammatically right or wrong ..what is more important, I can now write and express my self through the blog.
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